Endings & Beginnings

Photo by Taavi Paal

It's the season of change. I've always been afraid of it. Not knowing what's ahead, making hard decisions and jumping into the unknown IS scary. What I've realized, though, is that there is no growth without change. There can be no success without taking risks. And no dreams can come true when we're too scared to follow them.

I've been meaning to write this post for about a month, but it's too hard to find the right words to express what I'm feeling. Then I realized - there are no RIGHT words, there are just words.

In many ways, this period in my life has been about ending one chapter and beginning another. You've probably noticed the sporadic posting and the little changes in the blog layout. But that's just one tiny change in the see of changes. Where do I even begin?

One thing you might have noticed is that Elle is no longer posting on the blog. If you're thinking we had a falling out, rest assured we are still friends. Elle is just one of those people who knows how to set priorities in her life, and I admire her for that. She realized that blogging was not her passion, and that she needed to devote more of her time to her true passion - music. I totally support her in this decision - you need to be committed to your dreams to make them a reality. Maybe you'll spot her here once in a while, but she will no longer be co-authoring the blog.

I also closed my shop. Whether this is a temporary or permanent change is yet to be seen. As much as I loved developing my products, I did not love the everyday work of managing my own online shop. And finally, it all comes back to the same priorities. I need to make singing my top priority, and that means letting go of things that take me away from it.

Day 30: in the see of change

Whilst change can be good, some choices are harder than others to make. This summer I made the hardest decision I've ever had to make, and I'm still trying to cope with the aftermath of it. But, I felt it was time to let go, and let myself begin the pursuit of happiness in another shape and form. I debated long and hard whether or not to write about it here on the blog. I'm not writing this to get sympathy. I've poured so much of myself into this blog that it felt wrong to simply ignore something so life-altering. I don't even know how to say it, so here goes... I decided to give up the biggest part of my life - my love of 10 years.
There are a lot of people who don't understand me. To those people I can only say - don't judge before you've been there. But, what I've also found is that I have so many amazing people in my life - my persons - who have been there for me through everything. To them I'd like to say - thank you from the bottom of my heart! You will never know how much your support means to me.

I don't want to go into further detail at this point or discuss it here on the blog, but since this blog is a big part of me, I thought this period in my life should be reflected here somehow.

Thanks for reading!